It’s all the maybes that hold us back…It ended at a cross-road and you can wish on stars, the moon, planes, balloons and anything else in the sky but there just won’t be a “sail-away into the sunset” kind of happy ending this time. I know you think that if you go back to that cross-road then you might walk in the opposite direction and make a better ending but the truth is that it was only a choice trapped in the moment and once the decision was made it faded away with the moment. You can only find a different moment but she won’t look the same and she won’t feel the same way about you and all the silly things you used to do together. It’s like trying to get back to a dream; I know you wish you hadn’t woken-up from it!
Sometimes the most powerful connection is made in a fleeting glance; just long enough to remember her smile and her brown eyes but never enough to notice the crooked eyebrow. And even when the moment lingers long enough to steal a kiss or even to remind you of the scent of her perfume, it’s not quite enough to keep the memory untainted. You can keep it trapped in a glass-jar but you would have to bury your heart with it and miss-out on all the future moments that will surely come your way.
I know how you feel right now, I got your message because I feel the same way too, like there is nothing more to live for; jockeying through play-lists looking for the song that will take you back to that moment but that’s the wrong way to go about it. You must find the next chance, you need to recreate that magic but its power lies in sacrifice; you have to do something brave…you can’t choke now, take a deep breath and say goodbye. Walk-away before it gets any harder, before you make a bed-fellow out of your loneliness! Pack only the compliments and warm memories for when the nights get too cold and leave the rest of the baggage behind. Just a wave will do, don’t look back; let the lights guide you from here on…this is the art of saying goodbye!
Whatever else you do, you must never look back with regret or carry any blame because these things will hold you back and poison every future moment. The hurts fill the depths of our emotions so that sometimes it feels like it’s too much for one person to handle but even when it feels like the smart thing to do, don’t play it safe; learn to live with the acceptance that love is like a lottery ticket, however improbable the odds may seem, fools will never stop playing!
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